I'm Zaza. I'm... something. Artist, creature, sometimes game designer.

I don't know that I've ever really blogged. I mean, I used Tumblr a ways back and at some point that was definitely bloggish, Twitter and its ilk started out iirc as microblogging and I am using Bluesky right now. Social media's microblogging never quite felt the same to me as the impression I had of blogging though - they feel like open air conversations. Blogging has always felt in my mind to be more akin to journaling and the writing of articles and I never quite did that. I used to put journals on FA but I got into fights with people on a couple of occasions over very stupid things I dug my heels in on (I was mad about how the Wii handled multiplayer, a thing I barely had even done) and decided it was more trouble than its worth. Most things I did I just talked to friends about or just posted in snippets on social media.

I wanna change that.

I'm tired. I've been slowing down a bit. Social media has gotten to be a more progressively poisonous place. Bluesky has been an improvement but its imperfect and microblogging encourages me to either fire and forget my thoughts or make posts in a stream of consciousness. I want to do something different, for me. I've been a bit lax on personal journaling lately, I like to share my thoughts and, like a lot of folks in my space, I miss Cohost. Bless that little eggbug. I don't want to get into arguments any more. I want to have a little space of my own to share my thoughts and feelings.

So, here's where I'm at right now.

I'm losing my home as my landlady wants to sell the place. Just as we were getting things in place to move out, I lost my grandmother. It has hit my family extremely hard and thrown plans into disarray. I've had one of the most painful years of my life, but it has not been without good experiences. I got to be around some of my best friends for the first time. When I was on vacation, I also got to read a lot of comics too whilst folks were out at work or busy. I haven't really had the focus to sit down and read much between work, chronic pain, keeping a ton of plates spinning for myself and others, etc. Doing that felt healing and its left me excited to keep at it. Moving back home, I feel some of the pressure releasing. I'm going to be trying to read more again and I'd like to share my thoughts here. Blogging feels better for actually organising my thoughts and I think it'll help improve both focus and memory if I share what I'm reading.

I look forward to it. I hope it can be healing for me and interesting for others.

Thank you.